Hurtful

I was hurt so many times before. But never had I felt this empty before yesterday.
My dear grandfather was gone.
That sucks!
I love my grandpa, even though I didn't spend much time with him. He was my inspiration.
I can imagine how life will be in the future for my mom.
She was deeply hurt, inside her soul.
I felt like someone was squeezing my heart till it was broken and bleeding. I felt like an empty box which hardly can be opened up again.
I'm closed. I'm much closed.
I still don't know how God could take him away from us so fast that I couldn't do anything.
I couldn't even touch his hand before he went into eternal sleep.

I'm SUCH A SUCKER!!!

Now that I cannot listen to his voice again. I even tent to write an essay about his experience in wars and keeping worldwide peace.
But now, no more can I do.
Time is a killer, eventually you will die. By that time, whether you going to your eternal sleep with a smile or tears depends on how you live your life. So live it as meanifully as possible, cause everyone can live for just once in a lifetime. Be responsible with your life.

Change the way I am

I don't know but I believe that true. That's I know I'm who I am today because I knew you

For gooooood. One of my favourite songs, one of the most emotional songs I have ever heard, shoud be one of the greatest songs for a play.
Changing sometimes hurts. You try to change something about yourself, outside or inside you, it matters. Sometimes you can't decide whether change is better or not. But for me, I guess changing is good. Changing is finding a new you. Changing is the way you refresh yourself. Changing is how you can get better and better over time. Changing is showing others that you're not as good as them, you're way more spectacular. You're out of margin for a winner, yet for a loser. But you can respect yourself and make people do the same if you try to rule. You're lazy for a while, changing moments is the time for you to wake up and find out who you are.
Changing is good!!!!!
Don't look at others and try to do the same as they do.
Look at yourself and point out what you can do for yourself to be worthy. Don't be a loser!!

FAILED

Now  I know how to call something failed. Me failed. =(
I have been proud of me for a long time. Now I just realized that I'm nothing.
I know that depressed feeling is not good at all. But I just want to keep on that feeling now. Nothing can light me up this time cause I know me now.
Let old me go, then find a new one. That's such a hard thing anyone can complain. To find a new you, it's not that hard, but day by day you will find out you have changed. For good or bad it depends on you.
Now I just want to sleep and forget about all the things I see tonite. I'm gonna be lonely for a while.
Please!! let me be alone.

An Exhausting Day, AGAIN!

In the morning I woke up, at 9:30 a.m., it's not that surprising. Since the first day of the summer vacation, I got used to wake up late. But there was one thing that kept me totally active, a no-sender's-name message. It started with "Knock, knock, knock". I answer "Who's out there??". She said "I'm a rabbit". I said "Show me your ID" =)) Was it hilarious???

Actually, that was one of my friends. She was trying to communicate with some people, she is always that crazy. Whenever she feels lonely, she sends messages to someone who can make her laugh, without telling who she is, I kinda like it but to be honest, sometimes it is kind of annoying. Especially when I was doing my summer homework this morning. But it was ok. I kept on the conversation with her with no care about who the hell she is. 

Mentioning about summer homework, makes me feel guilty and worried. There're only 10 days left until we start the new school year. Although it is sooooo close I still have over 20 chemistry exam papers to complete. Awful!!!!

And the last thing to remember about today is the over burnt tofu of Dad. He got a new cell phone since his old one was broken for no reason. He wanted to check it out when he was cooking the tofu then we had the most unique tofu dish ever. Hahaha. It still stinks now, but a little bit weaker than it did after he found out.

Heartless

I changed my background music into a new one, which is from the show "THE VOICE", "Heartless" by Dia. I love her and I really love the show. It's not a common show at all where Cee-lo Green can stand together with Christina Aguilera. Each one of those competitors has a talent in singing, their voices have depth and emotion contained.

THE FIRST ENTRY

This is the first time I write an actual entry. It's not that I don't know how to use blogger.com, but I didn't have anything to write about, and I had no motivation to keep on typing. I was too lazy to write about something over a 100-word paragraph. But now I realize that I really need to practice my English writing skill, to get high scores in the TOEFL test I'm going to take. I know my vocabulary is poor, thus I hope that you guys, who are going to read my blog, will not complain about that. That makes me feel bad. No offensive comments please!!!

Gonna hurt my feeling

My blog is completely new, additionally I don't have any experience of writing and composing, so if I wrote something that might hurt your feeling or anyone else's, please forgive me :))
Or if I use wrong grammatical expressions then just read them and please don't mind me. I'm totally a fresh man.
My blog is going to be like what my blog's title says, me in my daily life. I will describe my own experience of the days I'm going to pass. Everything that I find interesting and fun. Eveything that might get your attention. Everything I want to tell the world or just keep it for myself. They might be practical, or just imaginative. They might be about my school, about the entertainment, or about the economic issues of my country or some other countries. They will obviously be my own thoughts so if they're not right, please just ignore them. Thank you guys much much much!!!!